Archive for February, 2012

What a difference five days made! My trip wasn’t very long, but I was really able to relax. Everything was unlike my normal life. I didn’t bring my kids, so I was “single.” I spent time with my brother’s family. My niece and nephews are much younger than my children, so their energy is completely […]


Right after I decided to leave my marriage, the song Landslide, by Stevie Nicks played constantly, and it spoke to me. Some of the words seemed to describe exactly where I was at that time. It’s the part in the middle: …Oh, mirror in the sky What is love? Can the child within my heart […]


impulsivity

25Feb12

I’ve been thinking about the fact that I am impulsive. Impulsivity is behavior without adequate forethought. It’s normal in children, and tends to be pathological in adults. I decided to study up a bit and found that it’s tied to ADHD, substance abuse disorders and bipolar disorder. Since it is an inability to self-regulate, impulsivity […]


I like meeting new people in general. A one on one conversation is the best. I don’t think I’m good at dating, though, and so far, have managed to avoid it. I thought I had met someone who I might actually be interested in, but too early in the process, as I wrote about before, […]


becoming me

23Feb12

Even though my kids are older now and the demands of motherhood are different than they used to be, I still spend a great deal of my time being “mom.” I’ve been a mom now for 17 years. And, partly because I was an at-home parent, it’s how I’ve been defined for a long time. […]


unconquerable

22Feb12

It would have been my mom’s birthday this week. She passed away over a decade ago, but I still think about her. Certain things remind me of her. Poems are one. She used to love reciting them and getting us to memorize them. Of all of them, this one affects me the most. I still […]


strong females

21Feb12

This speaks for itself. Found on Facebook; “Trying God’s Patience,” original poster.


a girl crush

19Feb12

A disturbing thing happened recently. A lovely 14 year old girl told me that she has a crush on a girl. In this day and age, it’s not a big deal, so I said okay…? She seemed upset, so we sat down to talk about it. I asked lots of questions and she gave me […]


Prelude to a Crime When I reached out I was denied access. Then I grasped at someone else and another door closed. I met someone new and jumped at the chance and ignored my own rules for his promise we’d take it easy. Act I – The Crime When he started to hurt me I […]


all kinda crazy

17Feb12

Not to mock mental illness, because it’s a very serious issue, but occasionally I go stark, raving. Truly. I suffer from Bipolar Disorder. (Btw, I loathe the expression suffer from, but it does seem to fit.) People with Bipolar Disorder (as you probably know) have mood swings, but spend most of their time struggling with […]